As a human being at first, and as a photographer my story is one of the most complicated to tell, what I went through and what I have achieved until now despite all the limitations and bumpy roads I had to ride on. I spent my whole life knowing and learning all these tricks that reality reserves for us as we are moving forward. My past relationships, experiences, professional and personal made me stronger everyday, and confirmed that I could only find my real peace within myself.
I realized that I am living in a world where love is simple and complicated at the same time. For some it is just a word, for some just an affirmation, for some a confirmation but for some just a piece or part of a mechanism, like a faculty implanted in a cyborg neural system. I might've used the wrong vocabulary to explain what I mean to say but it is my own way to see it; not saying that true love doesn't exist but to find it takes times and self-dedication in sharpening our way to see things, because what we see ? our conceptions or perceptions are usually wrong. There is the invisible, the muted part or let say the hidden sides that we usually see only when we do the mistake of letting ourselves blinded by our feelings, and when it happens... too late... you will have to start over.
I have seen people using our vulnerability to reign according to their experience, causing a depiction of doubt about our own capacity; using pettiness to express their emotions but in fact that is sad to realize that they never realize that somewhere their wounds cause their behavioral issues, they won't understand that even for themselves it might be impossible to change. This wrong doing of giving excuses to fix a situation, like patching a flat tire knowing that this is not the right thing to do became a pattern in the society and causes the cycle effect in our lives, just because we constantly trying to fix things. An Excuses and after a Hit ! once, twice, three times etc., How do you call that. Relationships requires tolerance but does it mean you have to forget your self or your values ? " Compromise " … wait ! A compromise is an agreement where both parties will be satisfied, I repeat " BOTH PARTIES ", but again, sad reality it is never balanced, very often one will always agree just because the perceptions are different and the other party will sure focus on the benefits out of it just for themselves.
Many lovers get hurt, depressed, sad, even suicidal … because they have been naive, or because of a change in their life or their surrounding, but one question came in my mind : " Why ?". We all the faculty to do what we want, or even make things happen : an example :
" I wanted to be a professional working with people in my younger age, I started to work as a teacher, then Marketing. Went to Business school to be an Administrator, According to my appreciation about the medical field I signed up to Medical technology, obtained a diploma and have been hired right after my graduation ad Medical Technician. A Clinical Biochemistry teacher was needed to teach a 5 months program to Nurses and other Students almost ready to get their diploma. I trained myself by research and I was able to be that teacher since it was hard to find this specialty …" The point of what I'm saying is because I've always had this appreciation to be a people person... through God I was able to drive myself into the direction I wanted, the truth to the matter is we get hurt because we allow ourselves to be hurt, or we decide to hold on to it and self-destruct our capability to handle or to adapt to change. it isn't bad not to want to adapt as well, because some situations are just a way for life to warn you about what the what's coming. I've known the man I was before as a naive innocent who didn't want to see reality as it is, but mostly used to cared about other than himself, and with that article I wouldn't want any other man or woman to be like that because this is how at the end you will realize of will have this bad taste of moving backward. Your life doesn't have to depend on a relationship to take ownership of your reality and deal with it.
If I did it, any of you who is reading can do it too... Just FOCUS.
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